Hurts.
It hurts really bad. Tearing me apart. My soul is bleeding and I can't stand this excruciating pain any more. Can't eat, can't sleep, can't breathe. Can't even cry, as my tears froze inside me. Everything I do is useless. I'm just wasting time. I feel like my heart has been torn out. Like I have a thousand knives inside. This loss is so hard to bear that my life lost its sense. It's pointless no matter what I do, as if I'm trying to cover a hole as large as the galaxy. I have no more reason to wake up. I don't know how to keep living without you, I can't move on. I don't want to live without you. I was ready to do everything, to change myself, to sacrifice myself and make you happy, to forgive, to concede, to protect you, to give you the last piece I have, to take care of your family, to support you, to be your shield, your blanket, your fire, your gun. I dedicated music to you. Maybe it wasn't enough. Maybe some of my mistakes were unfo