I don't belong here...
I hate this country. I have never liked it here since the very childhood. Never felt here like home, even though this is my homeland. I don't belong here, this is not my place. Not my people at all. They are strangers to me. I can’t stand them. I don't want to see or hear them. They are like wild dogs, driven by a stupid herd instinct, a way thinking which is totally alien to me, another worldview, values and principles, some alien culture - strange and alien to me. Even their appearance, style and looks. I feel like I'm stuck in a parallel universe. I'm not one of them, no. I want to run away, fly away, disappear. The feeling of misanthropy is only growing. I hate them all, especially men. It’s hard for me to walk down the street and ride in public transport, because I get depressed and this doesn't let me go for a long time. All these places depress me and give me that gloomy vibe, I can’t change my attitude to this and I don’t want to change anything in my vie